Thursday, September 23, 2010

Voyeurism


I have had a couple of people tell me lately that they feel funny reading my blog. Like they are peeking into my windows or something. I do keep a few things private but for the most part my life is an open book. When I was younger I wanted to keep up the facade of being perfect. I would worry about what others thought of me. I used to lie often - sometimes without a reason - just to make a story more interesting or to get myself out of trouble. It was a lot of work to keep those walls up and remember the stories I had told. It was tiring. A waste of energy. In reality we are not perfect. We screw up. There will always be someone richer, smarter, prettier, younger, more talented, etc. I figured out awhile ago that most people just want to know that they are normal. Have something in common with someone else. So why hide our insecurities? We all have them.

Back to the voyeurism. I think it is easier being a voyeur with someone you don't know. I love reading other people's blogs - I don't feel like I am peeking. It is a bit harder reading about someone you know. It makes you feel like your relationship with that person needs to be more intimate. Well here is a nice bit of info for you. I have no idea who reads my blog. I don't know if you read it once a month or 4 times a day. So, have at it. Peek all you want and when I see you again I will never know the difference. On the other hand if you do want to have a deeper relationship with me I am open to that too.

3 comments:

"effervescencia" said...

How are you SO right all the time? I completely agree with what you said, its not peeking. I think its feeling 'normal'...

john alexander said...

i would like a deeper relationship. please see me tonight. i will be the one sleeping next to you. no not ben the other dog

Sally said...

I was going to comment on your post but after reading what John wrote, I just can't. Everything I write sounds dirty. ;-)