Halloween!

Costume day at school - we have a spy and a trash can - the weekend begins!

Special days

We all have special days - birthdays, anniversaries, holidays. Tomorrow is my birthday - 41 (holy cow). Somehow this year I am not really aware of it. It used to be a big day - last year it was a big day. I usually like making a big deal out of it - any reason for a party - but this year it isn't quite the same. This year I am looking forward to June 14th 2011. That will mark one year of being cancer-free. It is almost like starting over - with year 1. I will be dancing on the ceiling next June when I can say a year has gone by. 41 is good - I have had one heck of a ride during those 41 years and I am glad to have had them. Every year I get from now on is a complete gift. I have had several people ask me what I want for my birthday. I really can't say - because I already have everything I could ever want.

Almost there!

OK peeps I am SOOO close to making my goal for the 3 Day for the Cure walk! Only $170 to go! Help me spread the word and make it this final stretch. The walk is in less than 3 weeks! I will be thinking of all of you while I walk and appreciate all of the wonderful prayers and good wishes I have received this year. I never would have done so well without you! I love you my angels!

Mexico!!!!!

Yes we snuck away. We have been in Los Cabos, Mexico for the last week celebrating being cancer-free! It was a dream vacation in all respects - endless amazing food and drinks - miles of white sandy beaches - horseback riding - baby turtles. I was with my two beautiful children and my sexy (can you say Marlboro Man?) husband. Dream come true.

You may have caught me dancing on the news tonight - KSBY did a spot on our gym and the Susan G Komen fundraising we are doing. If you are around next Friday come join me for a super fun dance party at the club!

Second Act.... part II

I think I can officially say my "hiccup" is over - this one anyway. I am sure there will be more throughout my life and I hope to learn from them. Right now I am learning to enjoy this calm, eventless, low stress time and be grateful.

Hop on that horse!

Well, I was suppose to team teach a BodyFlow class today with Suzanne but ended up going solo because her son is sick. I know she felt really guilty throwing me in there but I think it was a blessing. I was worried how my body would react physically and if my chemo brain would actually remember choreography. I felt good all the way around. Physically it felt GREAT to teach an hour class (I may crash later) and fortunately my memory isn't completely shot from the chemo because I remembered all of the choreo. Now if I could just get some nice cuing out of my mouth that would be something. I think determination is 90% of any battle - fortunately I am very head strong so I have that going for me :)

Euphoria

Complete and utter bliss. Just finished taking/teaching my first class back at the gym and it was AWESOME!!!!! I was surrounded by so many amazing and loving people who lifted me up and let me fly my first time back. I wish I could bottle what I am feeling right now because everyone deserves to feel this way. I would never sell it - just give it away. If you were there today - thank you. You have no idea how much it meant to me to have all of your beautiful, smiling faces looking back at me. My fellow instructors - you amaze me every time. This was a HUGE marker for me. A sign that life is back to normal now. I wont forget October 9th and the sea of pink in our sweet gym.

Scars

We all have them - just some we can see more obviously. The ones on my body will remind me over and over again of the things I learned this year. They will tell me it is not the outside that matters but the inside. They will remind me of how much faith was required when my life was put in the hands of my surgeons. I will be reminded of my husbands gentle touch and caring heart as he nursed me back to health. I will remember the anguish on my children's faces when they thought I was in pain and their relief when they knew it was over. I wont forget the incredible love that poured over me from close friends to mere acquaintances. I will always be aware of God's mercy and love as He healed me. These scars are not a "badge" for what I did - they are a beautiful and permanent reflection of what others have done for me.

Negative energy

I just don't have time for this in my life. As a result I typically surround myself with positive people but on occasion we are forced to be around someone who is negative. I have one person in particular right now that just gets under my skin. I am not quite sure why I let this person get under my skin - usually I can ignore it. It is a good challenge for me to try and rise above and not let this person bring me down. I know from experience that this person will never change. I know that my life is good and perfect just the way it is. The question is do I take the path of least resistance and just let this person be who they are going to be to avoid confrontation? Or do I walk away from doing something I love in order to avoid this person? Or, do I confront this person when the need arises and tell them they are bringing everyone around them down? Thoughts?

Shallow Hal

We watched this older movie again the other night - just happened upon it while channel surfing. I have to say that I think it is a great movie - I also think that for the most part it is true. I believe most of us see inner beauty shining through and that is how we judge outer beauty - except when we look in the mirror. Isn't it true that when someone does something mean or obnoxious they tend to look a little ugly? Doesn't your picture of them change? I think that happens the other way too. Once you get to know someone their physical aspects sort of fade and you don't notice their frizzy hair or a few extra pounds - you notice their incredible smile and their shining eyes. It is too bad we don't have mirrors that reflect what other people see in us. That way we could adjust our attitudes - not our clothes and hair - to make ourselves look better.