I explained to him that today - coming down off of steroids and pumped full of chemo I was feeling a bit of the same way. Edgy. Nervous. Like I can't get my heart out of my throat. Together we sat and calmed down. We looked at what was good. The sun was shining. He has good friends he can count on. We have our family and our love. We took all of those things beyond our control and let them go. We focused on what was real and now. We both started to breathe a bit easier and we both shed a tear in comfort and peace - because sometimes the tears come when what is good is overwhelming.